I feel like Titanium was written to me, like an anthem urging me to remember my past but look to the future. Two years ago I was a drunk, I drank everyday and tried to hide it from everyone, including my husband. On June 9th 2012, I drunkenly took my husband .40 caliber handgun to my chin and fired. The bullet traveled up through my chin, destroying bone and flesh like I was made of putty; it exited right between my eyes, nearly killing me. I spent a month in the hospital and had more surgeries then I can remember. I spent 2 years sober, but relapsed in May of 2012. My marriage destroyed and feeling ruined, I checked into a psychiatric hospital on June 14th. Cut off from the rest of the world, my body and mind slowly healed, but with no music other than what I could sing. After a week, I was released into the care of my parents, and my older sister Becky came over to visit me. She excitedly spoke of a song she thought I would love, "Titanium!" she said. We listened to it, then again and again. I felt like it was written for me, to me. While my face and neck bare scars to prove I am not bullet proof, all my doctors said I should have died. Now I walk around with marks that scream to the world I not only attempted suicide, but an alcoholic as well. But hearing "Titanium", I feel like it doesn't matter, "take your aim, fire away, shoot me down but I won't fall". Thank you a million times over for the love, genius, and work that went into this song, it is a masterpiece.
I forgot to include this in my original post:
Because of all the damage done to the bones in my upper and lower jaw, pallet, nose, cheek bones, and orbital sockets, I have enough titanium in my face to make a few trinkets. Titanium plates, screw, mesh, and wire hold my face together. It is a big reason why I feel a strong connection to this song.
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